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Sue Kusch's avatar

The place I belong to is a one-mile by one-mile square of sorts, bordered by two graveled roads. It’s part of a rural area that is 15 miles outside of a small village that has no traffic lights. My elevation is 2400 feet - a gradual climb in the foothills of the Cascade Range of southern Washington State that I refer to as "30 minutes from everywhere."

This place represents much change and growth in so many aspects of my life. I abandoned a career and suburban lifestyle to move here, to change my lifestyle after living in urban and suburban settings for 50 years. My friends called it my mid-life crisis - I agreed 100%. I was 50 and my crisis was a life of discontent, boredom, and a brewing hopelessness. I had a vision of living closer to nature, a return to four distinct seasons, a connection to the small village down the hill, and days spent outside.

I was widowed unexpectedly, in one night, in my second year here. My grief was complicated and at times profound. City friends urged me to move back to the city -to come home - I couldn’t possibly live here by myself. But it was too late; my heart was now part of this place and it had laid claim to me.

It could be the towering Douglas firs, who offer some protection from this region’s infamous winds. It might be the ravens who fly over and greet me with a loud caw as I work in my garden. Or the arrival of the swallows, who cause me to stop and look up to watch them eat on the fly. My relationship with the gawky and prolific elderberry shrubs is key to my winter wellness, wildcrafting their spring flowers and late summer berries for remedies. Those not-native-but-always-welcome wild turkeys that migrate each day from my neighbors on the left, through my front yard to my neighbors on the right, and then back, sometimes make me flinch at their seemingly unkind pecking behavior. And the light! The 14 hours of light of the northern spring, the hot intense overhead sun of the summer that forces me into the garden at dawn, and my favorite, the diffused low light of autumn highlight the pasture dying grasses.

For 15 years, I have walked the two roads almost daily, always accompanied by my beloved dogs, and occasionally with my wonderful neighbors. Despite our introverted natures, we have developed a sense of community and rely on each other for those moments in life when we need community.

This morning, before the light arrived, coyotes were yipping and howling in the woods that exist between my place and my neighbor’s. My cat, once a feral kitten, ran for cover in one of the bedrooms (I thoroughly enjoyed that fear-based reaction as he is the bully in the house). My dog, Beau, jumped off the comfortable couch, went to the window, and joined in the howling. I listened with a smile on my face and pondered how that ancient instinct to howl with a pack was never domesticated out of existence. A moment of wildness.

Like Beau and the coyotes, I experience a sense of wild contentment, living in the space between wildness and domestication.

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Monica Miller's avatar

I live amidst sprawl, in a two-bedroom, two-bath apartment with what the management company generously calls a “deck,” in a pre-fab apartment complex on the other side of the interstate from Kroger, Walmart, and Macon’s AMC movie theater. My daily walks allow me to see the hidden ecosystem that surrounds and survives despite all of the human activity.

My walks take me on the sidewalk on one side of Zebulon, past the Chevron and auto parts store, to where the sidewalk ends at the “Jesus Saves” sign that marks the entrance to the Rock Springs Church, thrift store, and mission. There’s a drainage ditch there where the first butterflies appear each spring among the rocky grass.

I cross the street at the light and walk down the sidewalk on the opposite side of the road, past a couple of abandoned houses to where the trees begin. Pear trees, privet, and wisteria are prominent among the tall pines. I walk to where a chain stretches across a sort of entrance to the woods. I’ve never gone in there–having seen other small glades in the neighborhood where people had set up small camps, I’m afraid of disturbing a place that isn’t mine.

I turn then, retrace my steps, and keep going past the Shell Station, the pizza place, the new liquor store. The storefront by the on-ramp that has sat empty for several years just opened as a used car lot. Beyond that is the overpass, and one of my favorite secret bits of nature. I have come to know the ecosystem at the 475 overpass over the past seven years that I’ve lived here, its changing vegetation over the course of a year. I know early spring when the purple morning glory vines appear. There’s a stand of trees where I’ve seen deer more than once. There’s a gully where a flock of purple vervain grows each spring so brilliantly that I’m often reminded of Alice Walker’s warning that it’s a sin to pass a field of purple flowers without giving thanks.

When I return home, I often go out on my small “deck” where I try to cultivate a sort of ecosystem in a crowded container garden and bird feeders. I have two small shelves and a table with pots of plants, many of which have stories I can tell. There are two pots of night-blooming cereus: one was rooted by my cousin Debra in Sylva, North Carolina, and one was rooted by my friend Erin in Athens, Georgia. I first saw night-blooming cereus at Eudora Welty’s house in Jackson, Mississippi, and I’ve been enchanted by it ever since. In the window are pots of pothos that I rooted from a plant of Mamaw’s, along with several orchids that I inherited from my friend Jeanne when she moved away from Macon to Oregon.

I keep a few field guides on the table by the door to the deck, where I sit and sometimes work, sometimes look out the window at my garden and the trees beyond. The first birds I saw here were a pair of cardinals, male and female; a friend told me that cardinals are a good omen, as they mate for life. I then identified an Eastern towhee that was banging against the glass in the door; I had been dreaming I was in Wuthering Heights, so I call the towhee “Cathy.” I was enchanted by the Carolina wren, whose eyeliner reminded me of the actress Divine; towhees are now my “little divine birds.”

These hidden pockets of nature in my neighborhood are what I plan to write about.

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